Rubatosis: the unsettling awareness of your own heartbeat.
Ancient Greek aphorism
Not all the things we find in our heart are agreeable.
Father Erik Varden,
Abbott of Mount St Bernard Abbey, Leicestershire, UK
... it must be good for anyone to think “Perhaps in some way I can't see, I may be
on a bad path, perhaps I am hopelessly wrong in some essential way.”
G E M Anscombe – “Modern Moral Philosophy”, Philosophy 33, no. 124, January 1958
... if you do not know yourself, your unconscious as well as your conscious states,
all your inquiry will be twisted, given a bias. You will have no foundation for
thinking which is rational, clear, logical, sane. Your thinking will be according
to a certain pattern, formula, or set of ideas – but that is not really thinking.
To think clearly, logically, without becoming neurotic, without being caught in
any form of illusion, you have to know this whole process of your own consciousness,
Hell is a world of lies
Hell is not knowing who you are. Self-deception divides you from yourself. If you
can accept who you really are, including your “shadow”, the parts of yourself you
are scared of or don’t like, you can become whole. What you don’t face in yourself
you will project onto others. We need to create a safe place inside ourselves where
we can see our real self; our real thoughts, feelings and attitudes. Observe a feeling.
Acknowledge it, describe it. Let it do its job of telling you something. Accept
the fear, pain and humiliation that you are hiding from yourself.
Our minds are always limited compared with reality. Accept sometimes being wrong.
Truth is love. If we don’t face the truth then we are stuck.
There are two worlds, the inner and the outer. The more we can connect with ourselves,
the more we can connect with others.
False voice, real voice?
How do we tell a false voice from a real voice? We can all be driven by self-importance,
by greed, hatred or ignorance (making assumptions). The false voice does not see
its own motivation. The real voice can see the self-importance, greed, anger, desire,
fear, hurt, shame, the motivations guiding its thoughts, and is not consumed by them.
What we can see in ourselves we are free of.
Self-deception – one of the most dangerous things in the world
Self-deception is the ego defense of Rationalisation: making excuses to oneself to
try to pretend that things are different from how they really are.
We may be ignorant of how things really are, and therefore blind to it. We may be
blind because we subconsciously hide the truth from ourselves because of the uncomfortable
way it makes us feel. We may be blind to it just because we don’t care enough about
it to take it into consideration.
Mental noting and emotional intelligence
Meditation is linked to self-awareness. In meditation we gain insight into the nature
of reality and the self; observing our thoughts, emotions and bodily feelings as
they really are.
... language helps us to be aware of our feelings, bringing them into rational thought.
If we don’t have a chance for our feelings to be understood as a child, something
called validation, as an adult we will tend to react impulsively. Research has shown
that people involved in violent fights often can’t put their feelings into words;
anger makes them hit out where the act of bringing feelings into thought through
the use of words would tame angry impulses. We don’t just depend on those around
us to learn language to communicate practical things as we grow up, we depend on
them to help us use it to tame our emotions, to exercise self-control.
Penny Spikins – “How Compassion Made Us Human – the evolutionary origins of tenderness,
trust & morality”